Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Good Days and Better Days

The NICU life is hard. So many tears are shed everyday, the fewest being from the babies. A sweet nurse told me that we have good days and better days in the NICU. I agree. Though some days are tougher than others, these babies fight everyday harder than some do in their entire lives. They are doing amazing things each day.

Today was one of those good days. (But I know that better days are coming!) Jamison has been having a few more desats (desaturations- when the blood doesn't have enough oxygen) than they'd like, so they put back in his nasal cannula and he's receiving a little air to help. I hate to see this little boy struggle, though I feel confident he is being watched over every second of the day, and I know he will overcome this obstacle just like the last. 

Amidst the chaos, Jamison and I exchanged our very first real smile today. I got to hold him for a little bit during his feeding, and we had our daily chat like we usually do. I smiled at him and he gave me the biggest smile back! It might've just been perfect timing, but I like to think Jamison knew his mama needed a little cheering up. It melted my heart. 

Happy FOUR weeks Jamison! We couldn't love you more! Just wishing we could slow down time. This has been the fastest month of our lives. Though his birthday was one of the quickest days of my life, I love thinking about the moment we became a family of 3. We are so grateful for this little one! 5 lbs. 6 oz. tonight! 

Jamison's nurse said she wanted him to have his "Rock Star" hat for today! 


4 comments:

  1. What a tender mercy that smile was! He loves his mama! Karen, you are amazing and I shed tears with you each day as I share the heartache of his struggles. As mothers, and grandmothers, that is just what we do. 5 lbs 6 ozs!!! That is amazing! He will be a big boy home smiling and playing soon and you will be wondering where the days of sitting and watching have gone. Love you all so much!!

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  2. Love that little Rock Star! Can't wait to meet him soon.

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  3. This post made me tear up! You guys are all being watched over! He's a cutie!

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  4. I loved that he smiled at you this week. Fun to read your blog.

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